Me and my thoughts

It's quickly approaching 2 am. I am so tired my eyes are burning. Last night I was awake until 5:30 am and was able to sleep until about 8:30 am when a loud noise woke me from my slumber. Sleep is hard to come by right now. When I am in bed, Levi curls himself up under my right ribs and he feels like an extremely heavy bowling ball. I do my best to push him into a more southern location. Sometimes it works like a charm... others times I'm simply up a creek with an overly crowded belly.  I've always had an issue with my feet feeling hot at night and when that happens it makes my legs extremely restless. The restlessness triggers my insomnia (this the reason I'm awake now). It's a vicious battle and the only thing the doctors say is "hang in there, sleep when you can...". Gee, thanks!  Levi Samuel is due on Friday. Yes, officially 5 days!!!!  Although, as long as everything goes as planned, we are scheduled for an induction on Tuesday. Since it is TECHNICALLY now Sunday, I have 2 full days before heading to Labor and Delivery.  This pregnancy has flown by. Even this last month. I feel like I am so busy with Afton, I don't have much time to think about this little man. I guess that will change very soon.  I've had people ask me the typical "how are you feeling? , "does it feel real yet?"  Well.... huge. I'm exhausted, my hips hurt, my back hurts, my tailbone hurts, I feel like my boobs are up to my throat.... yeah, I feel amazing and definitely have that pregnancy glow. Whatever... and as for the second question. It's been real since the moment I saw two very faint pink lines and FaceTime'd my mom to ask if she could see them or if I had officially lost my marbles. I was a whopping 3 weeks pregnant at that point. 36 short weeks ago. Yes, it feels real. Very real. My life is about to drastically change and I don't like change lol.  Over the past 2 weeks I have tried to take the time to be very present with Afton. Snuggling with her in the recliner while she watched Daniel Tiger or spending extra time during the day playing with her babies and teaching how to be gentle instead of hucking the baby on the floor (fingers crossed baby Levi will not be the recipient of Aftons sour side). I've found myself watching her more. Realizing how grown up she is getting but so incredibly thankful that she is only 2 1/2. On Mother's Day, I found myself giving her extra loves and thanking her for making me a mommy. I'm thankful that Levi will give me the opportunity to be a mommy to 2 precious spirits and to experience both genders in our home.  I can honestly say I am not nervous about labor and delivery. When I was pregnant with Afton, lots of people commented on how calm I was about shooting a watermelon through a key hole.... my theory was this "baby has to exit one way or the other and no amount of worry will keep her inside when she is ready to exit". I feel the same way this time around. The only difference is that I have been having random contractions that have been extremely uncomfortable and it has given me an early glimpse of what is to come. I didn't have that with Afton. I went to the hospital 100% unaware of what was to come. Although I am NOT at all mentally prepared to have two children, I am FOR SURE ready to close the door to pregnancy. Now I can watch everyone else in my family have babies and I can be thrilled for them!!! On June 2, my mom, sister and niece will begin their cross country treck. They are driving from Utah to Virginia. My heart is so happy knowing they will be here shortly after we bring Levi home. Paul will be taking 2 weeks off of work. 1 solid week home and the. 1 week that will be a little split up. Emily and Lily will be here for about 2 weeks and mom will be here between 4-5 weeks. I am really looking forward to the help that will be much needed. Afton will have so much fun bonding with Lily. Those two girls are kindred spirits. I cannot wait to give Lily big hugs and kisses. Mostly I'm excited for several weeks of home cooked meals and I don't have to be the head chef. I look forward to daily walks with my mom and working on getting my body back. This will be a wonderful summer with my family.  Well, it's 2:30. I guess I'll give sleep another try.  I cannot tell you how anxious I am to deliver this baby, hand him to Paul, and take a long nap. I am a stomach sleeper and I am looking forward to picking up where I left off 9 months ago.  I hope this post finds everyone healthy and happy. I cannot wait to post my labor and delivery story. I'll make sure I have a gob of pictures to post as well.  Baby Levi, please treat mommy well this week. I sure love you little man. I cannot wait to meet you and give you lots and lots of kisses!!!!  EQ